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Thursday, August 31, 2006

With No Words Left

Ignorance is bliss
And sometimes ignoring is also a bliss
Because it's only that way...
That is probably the best for all of us
If there was a time,
I wished i turned time back
To know that YOU once more.
Sigh.

Maybe.

These footprints that u leave on each heart
Are inexplicable.
What it is abt u, i still cannot fathom.

I wanna know
What it's like to know u
Fully.
To comprehend ur every thought

I wanna be the one
Who feels ur heartbeat as my own
Who understands
Who gets it

So many implications,
So many thoughts,
So many obstacles,
So many stops.

But not too many,
For us to get through them.

Everything in His time,
And we will get there
For Love
Never fails.

And I love you more than I love myself

<< *take my hand*
9:02 PM

back to the past; *

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Sunday, August 27, 2006

More Than Just Love Bugs

Dear, don't do this, i'm begging you.
If you want me, you have me.
Please don't call me to you
Then leave me all alone again
Wanting you.
I just can't say anymore.
I just wanna fall.

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round
Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

My heart cannot go on anymore.
HOW LONG till this aching hunger is fed?
Father, though i don't understand,
Still, You reign.
Take the wheel.

<< *take my hand*
9:34 PM

back to the past; *

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Saturday, August 19, 2006

I'm Sorry

Though there are a few other stuff i wanna write abt today,
I will not.
Today will be specially for u,
Cos it's the least I can do for someone great.

I know you too well.
You know me too well.
Those are lame reasons
But they are reasons nonetheless.

Thank you for being so good to me.
You are one of the few ppl,
Who ever made me feel this loved.

You'd probably try to diminish the significance now
Play it down a little, and how i'm just a pawn,
To make me feel better,
But all that you've done,
All the times you beared it in silence,
All the times you were strong,
All the times you even tried to help,
I will remember.

You don't know,
But i wld hv been more than glad to long ago,
It would have been such a pleasure, so easy
Now, things are different,
Still I could try,
But it just wldn be fair to you.
And it wldn hurt you any less than now.

You can count on me to be as good a friend to you,
As you have been to me,
And even more so,
For you are my dearest brother in Christ.

You deserve better.
You will spoil and pamper her when you find her,
And your princess, will be worth it,

much more worthy of ur awesome love than i am

<< *take my hand*
1:38 PM

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Saturday, August 12, 2006

Tonight

I post with a heavy heart.

I was convinced
that I could do this.
I was convinced
that I didn't need you THAT much
I was convinced
that a month of stagnance would be a piece of cake.
I was convinced...
I was...
I..

Want you, need you, love you, miss you
Dream of you, think about you,
Search for you, long for you, pray for you,
Can live, but can't smile that much without you

But who would understand?
Not them..they would scorn, mock and laugh.
Not you..because you don't comprehend the intensity.
Not me..because i'm so sick, so starved of you.

What if?
What if I had a chance just like he did? To show.
Would you feel it? Would you understand?
Would it make you yearn more?
Would it make you care more?
Would it bring you closer?
Would it draw you back?
Would it suffice?
Would it be possible?

I can't run anymore.

JESUS, TAKE THE WHEEL

before i crash and burn and die

i'm sorry..

<< *take my hand*
10:15 PM

back to the past; *

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Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Hold on, Hold me.

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
and the sun does not appear
I will be here

If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
Cause I will be here

I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
I will be here

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I will be here

Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I will be here

I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here

I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I will be here
Oh, I will be here.

I listen, I feel, I break.
It is that pure, that genuine, that innocent.
Isn't it?

We both struggle with the same things
We both want
But this shouldn't be the way...
I love you,
LOVE.

You dunno a thing now,
You dunno why i say all this,
You dunno how much i dun want
Your downfall to be mine too.
But i know how it feels
To want more, the way we like it.

I want us to grow together,
We need to,
then will everything else fall into place..
I can't go on this way.

I have a responsibility to fulfill unto u,
I have a commitment to keep,
To love purely.
To love agape.
To love, because of Love.

And no one can help us
But His Highest.

Longing for your touch again

<< *take my hand*
11:00 PM

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