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Friday, June 23, 2006
It's Amazing
It's amazing
Just came back from leaders' retreat
And it was a great time with God indeed
The ways He spoke,
Simply to be still and know that He is God
That He is in control
Assuring, beautiful, priceless
I cry.
It's amazing
We are closer as a family of Christ now
And all those hidden stuff
All known, all prayed for, all supported
But you know what?
The biggest joy
Was being able to say your name in that room
Without any fear, and smile,
Because u are part of me.
It's amazing
How i'm drawn back to my reasons for holding on
Why i struggle through the days just for u
Praying, giving, interceding, waiting
Ashamed for even considering worldly strategies
All i do, that i do for you,
I do out of love.
Love by definition of 1 Corinthians 13
To love purely, out of the overflow of His love
And sadly,
It's amazing
All those excuses
You must have a whole compilation of them
I try and struggle to be understanding each time
But there are limits.
True, i say i will be here always
But don't push it.
Don't take it for granted.
Call it whatever u want.
I'm sian, pissed, irritated, disappointed, disgusted
Whatever.
I force myself to never concede to being tired of u.
I force myself to be loyal each time i find straying appealing.
I choose to be persistent and patient.
I make myself deprived of so much that i need.
Just for commitment's sake..
It gets dry, weary, even difficult so often
With all that u do and all that u say
-cold-cold-cold-WARM-cold-cold-cold-WARM-
It's in times like these that agape has to shine forth again
may God give me the grace, strength, anointing and empowerment.
To keep loving you
<< *take my hand*
11:06 AM
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