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Sunday, June 04, 2006
Cry Joyful
oxymoron? no larh. not at all.
so much has happened over the past few months
and i find myself smiling the days away in sch
only to return to that sullen self when the bustle of life fades away each day.
now that's totally pointless.
i've loved people all my life. by that i mean all people.
if you know me personally, uv probably been "loved" by me in one way or another.
but after incidents and accidents pour in,
that flame slowly grows dim..till it's only left with a bare spark.
now i feel like i'm losing "myself" when that happens.
main point of clarification:
as i wait, i shall be joyful.
that is my heart's cry.
i wanna make a difference through the unconditional joy that Jesus gives me.
i want ppl to see the difference when they look at me.
and to be able to speak the words of Paul,
and also say, to Jesus be all the glory.
i've only let myself be completely broken before 3 people all this while.
if you're one of them, smile =) haha, cos i guess u cud say ur especially trusted.
but i'm gonna try from now on to shine my true joy in front of u guys e most too.
Beth, i'm glad ur still around. i tink i wld hv been devastated if u heeded what u were told. but life wld still have had to go on, tho i'd be faced with the decision of following u or my heart and spirit. thank God they're all in line with each other. we'll probably be faced with these stuff again somewhere within the next 10 years, but i hope we'll face it and tide thru it side by side. n hey, i still wanna see u in white more than once ok. (once will be 10 years later, the other will be..hmm...whenever u decide. GO FIGURE =p) geez i tink crypticism's becoming an integral part of our communication. anyways, *hugs*.
sogar wenn ich unter Traenen aufgewackt bin,
gebe ich mein Alles fuer Jesu
<< *take my hand*
9:39 PM
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