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Friday, April 28, 2006

Odd.

how odd.

odd behaviour
odd words
odd reasons
odd reluctance
odd obstination
odd perseverance
odd love.

odd me.odd you.odd us.

hmm.
it's odd how this mere odd "odd" from you
has the power to spark off a totally odd post
on this odd word.

if being odd makes me a tiny bit more special,
i'd glady be odd for you.

<< *take my hand*
9:29 PM

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Saturday, April 15, 2006

I Hate, But, You

I hate the liars
This, I tell you, is true
But nevertheless, I know
I will never hate you

I hate the promise-breakers
In case you haven't got a clue
But amazingly, till now
I still care for you

I hate the trust-breachers
Trust me, I really do
But strangely, I trust somehow
I will never leave you

I hate the heart-shatterers
Believe me, I do
But no matter how unbelievable
I still believe in you

I hate the freezers
Who undermine "I love you"
But lovingly I still can say
I've all the warmth for you

I hate the pain-inflictors
I'd care less if they felt pain too
But nonetheless, I lament now
My pain still lies in you

I hate the sorrow-bringers
I wish they would disappear
But as always, because of you
I am often blue,

Simply cos' I still love you.

Author died 6/2/2006

<< *take my hand*
6:12 PM

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Friday, April 14, 2006

Why

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddy
He said I had finally reached that age
That I could ride on a horse next to him
That of course was not quite as wild

We heard a crowd of people shouting
So we stopped to find out why
There was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said,
Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts him more than he shows...
Daddy, can't you do something?
He looks as though he's gonna cry...
You said he was stronger than all of those guys
Daddy, please tell me why...
Why does everyone want him to die?

Later that day, the sky grew cloudy
And daddy said I should go inside
He said that things could get stormy
Boy, was he right, but I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide

So after he left, I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowd to a hill where I knew men had been killed
Then I heard a voice call from the cross

And it said:
Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my robe?
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows...
Father, please, can't You do something?
I know that You must hear my cry..
I thought I could handle a cross of this size
Father, remind me why...
Why does everyone want me to die?
Oh, when will I understand why?

My precious Son, I hear them screaming
And I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
Soon I will clothe you in robes of my own
Jesus, this hurts me much more than you know
But this dark hour, I must do nothing
Though I've heard your unbearable cry...
The power in your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below, see that child,
Trembling by her father's side..
Now I can tell you why..
She is why you must die...

Thank you Father,
Thank you Jesus

<< *take my hand*
6:49 PM

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Thursday, April 13, 2006

Do you believe in Everlasting Love?

Everlasting Love

Hearts gone astray, deep in hurt when they go
I went away just when you needed me so
You won't regret, I'll come back begging you
Won't you forget, welcome the love we once knew...

Open up your eyes, then you realise
Here I stand with my everlasting love
Need you by my side
[You] to be my pride
Never be denied everlasting love....

From the very start open up your heart,
Feel that you've fall in, Everlasting love...

Need a love to last forever (x4)

I need your love to last forever...

i still do

<< *take my hand*
9:16 PM

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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

No.

No breaking of my relationships and friendships.
No speaking thoughts of doubt into my mind.
No more blinding the ones that I love.
No setting traps to lure them away.
No touching my friends.
No new bondages.
No distractions.
No temptations.
No deceptions.
No cynicism.
No lying.
No you.

NO MORE.

No to everything.

Leave my friends alone.
and GET OUT OF MY LIFE.

satan was defeated the day my Jesus died.

<< *take my hand*
10:10 PM

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Friday, April 07, 2006

For the first time in 5 months,
My post isn't gonna be about someone. lol.
Applause please. =p

Today, I have two things in mind: evangelism and faith.
But since I have a bad feeling this is gonna be REALLY long, i'll just talk about the more pressing one.

Note of Warning: This isn't meant to be preachy, besides I have no right. I just feel convicted to share this. He who has ears, let him hear. Please listen if you please.

Well. Christians evangelise, because it's what God told us we should do.
But.
I think it's time many of us who call ourselves Christians relook the way we evangelise, which are effectively propelled by our motives behind evangelising.
When I call myself a Christian, I say I am:
-a child of God
-an ambassador for Christ
-a person who loves people
-a servant of the King of Kings
-a disciple of Jesus
All these basically connote a humble heart and an obedient soul that heeds the direction of the Holy Spirit.

Christianity is no religion to me. Religion has the implication of laws and more laws that we follow because of the fear that we'd be struck dead by the sovereign power if we don't obey. As far as I'm concerned, all I have is a relationship with God. If I could, I would choose not to classify it -- not as Methodist, Charismatic, Evangelical, Baptist, Presbytarian or Catholic. I am but a believer and doer of God's Word and I serve one Master, my Lord Jesus Christ. I don't love Him because He offers to save me. I love Him because He loved me first, and He offered to save me out of the love He has for me [though I am still most unworthy].

A little sidetrack here. I don't know how accurate I am, but based on a prolonged observations, I see absolutely kind hearted, loving, caring, essentially good people refusing to accept God into their lives, because of the unwillingness to have a form of authority over them, dictating their lives. If the contention is the reality of God, then I have nothing much to say for now because it'll take time as God slowly shows Himself strong and true in each individual's life, for one to be able to say he believes in God. However, I feel really compelled to suggest one thing to anyone who may be resisting God because you're satisfied with the way your life is without God and you don't see the need to have extra restrictions and laws acting as a burden upon you: God's intention is not to bind you under His control or manipulate you. He hopes you'll accept Him because He loves you and created you. He is not threatening you with "if you don't accept me, you don't go to Heaven". He is really saying "I already have a place for you in Heaven. I'm just waiting for you to take it." Wouldn't you agree then, that the only way to "taking that place" is by accepting God, since Heaven is per se His place? [some people would know why I sidetracked to this topic. But well, i'll put it simply: I say I love you with everything I am, but He loves you even more than that, I can't even describe it.]

As for why do we evangelise?
Is it because we've gotten so used to the idea of "we are Christians therefore we evangelise" because it's been there in church eversince we started attending church?
Is it because our youth group leaders are encouraging us to bring more friends to church?
Is it because we want growth in numbers in the church?
Have we lost what should be the true reason for being passionate about evangelism?

I can only spread the reality and love of God to people around me if I have experienced it for myself. Well, I have. So when I talk to someone about God, it is simply because I love this person just like Jesus loves him and I want him to experience the same goodness and freedom that I have found in Christ. Evangelism with blunted motives won't get nowhere. In fact, what's the point? Would God be pleased if we tried to bring friends to church just so that we'd hear our pastor commend us on our enthusiasm for God and "show" the rest of our church friends who didn't manage to bring as many? I think not.

And the biggest issue of it all (what actually sparked off this whole above chunk of text) is the way we go about doing it. Tact. Sensitivity. Love. Patience. Humility. Where are they?
Coercing/scaring someone into accepting Christ is just about the stupidest thing a Christian can do. Why?
All that talk about the love of God would then be nullified. All the proclamations of faith would be in vain and just farce. Why can't we just pray and fast more if we really loved that person whom we were trying so desperately hard to bring to Christ?

I'm going to resolve to be nothing but obedient to Christ now on, even if it takes YEARS.
[fine maybe i did go into it a little XD]

i still pray for that day,
i still pray for you

<< *take my hand*
10:05 PM

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Sunday, April 02, 2006

One of our days again today.. =)

Learnt how to celebrate in solitude
Learnt how to reminisce in silence
Learnt how to love in oblivion

After 5 months..

It's never been the same a single day
Ever since the moment you came my way
Wish that I could still hear you say
But for now, I'm gonna be okay =)

je t'...

nah, maybe next time.

bon anniversaire des cinq mois

<< *take my hand*
9:31 PM

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