<< Looking back [#] `-
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Some may wonder, why i risked "us" by saying that.
Some may question, if it was worth it.
It's like placing ur two most precious treasures on a weighing scale.
I'm sorry if i start offending ppl with my language, but verdammte, kann ich es NICHT MEHR ERTRAGEN.
I know i wanna spend the rest of my life by the side of this person. But...
I know how much this person means to me. But...
I know that i wldn be happy without this person. But...
I know that never in my life will i find anyone like this person. But...
But what, u ask?
But I love my Lord Jesus Christ.
Because of what He has done, and who He is.
Because the very fact that I even have this person in my life, is by God's grace.
Because without Him, I would be lost, and driven to desperation.
Then why can't I make a firm decision?
The reason, is that because I love him, I want him to have Him in his life and experience His goodness and His love and His guidance too.
I want him to know how much He loves him and how long He has been waiting for him.
I want him to experience why I love Him so much and someday love Him too, perhaps.
But the last thing I wld ever wana do is put pressure on him. Because tts not He wld want either.
So all I can do now, is hide in a corner, and pray, and cry, and love.
Lord he is so special to me, please don't take him away from me.
<< *take my hand*
12:02 AM
back to the past; *
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