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Friday, July 29, 2005
Break me if u wana.
i dont care much anymore.
here i am trying, trying so hard, after seeing everythn's tt happened
yet im HELPLESS.
i cant help her,
i cant stop quarreling with u,
i cant live one day without u picking on me for something
OH ITS FOR MY GOOD
i respect u since God has put u over me as authority
n i love u cos u brought me into existence
i DO NOT wana quarrel with u after seeing wat happened to her today
BUT WHAT ARE U DOING?!!!!!!
i am fed up.
i am thirsty
i am hungry
i am cold
i am numb
i am broken
i am lost
i am wandering and probably wont be found in e near future
at e pace e world's going, e events happening, e tragedies striking, e love ones going,
it makes me wonder how long more til tt day comes
i dun wana think so much. Lord just let me take refuge in u.
BREAK ME IF U WANA. I AM BROKEN ALREADY ANYWAY.
P.S. to argh, a2ie and tonc: this has NTHN to do with u losers. i didn wana insult u, i didn wana scream, but if u say just ONE COMMENT on this post, THATS IT. Settle e mess in YOUR OWN lives before u meddle in mine. JUST SHUT UP N GO AWAY.
to A.F: just let me cool down. its nt those "kids" tt are making me pissed. its sumthn else(deduce from e post if u can, if not just let me cool down. il be fine).
<< *take my hand*
11:05 PM
back to the past; *
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Wednesday, July 13, 2005
At Long Last...
Many roads have been overlooked
The dusty winds swirling over all
Trees with branches drooping low
Trees whose tears on the grass blades fall
Soon snow falls upon that well-trodden path
And the earth lies under a blanket of white clean
Frost permeates, all is calm
And all that's left are icy cutting knives in the wind
The cold conceals all within its numbing palms
The red dirt sands swirl no longer high
The ripples are no more...
The depth no longer seen by the eye
Then maybe...just maybe...
Peace will be, where it never was
At long last...
But not for long...
For yonder, lies a road
a road where the sun smiles each day
and all that lies beneath the cover of white
will be melted away...
And new roads will be revealed,
Trees will regain their towering view
Winds will blow the red dirt sand away
Raindrops gone by, now only dew
Then surely...most surely...
Joy will linger, though it seemed never to be
It just lay beneath the icy visage
Where no one could see
Now it is here...
At long last...
<< *take my hand*
9:33 PM
back to the past; *
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Thursday, July 07, 2005
NE?!
ok, i am not gona say much. u all probably realise my blog's kinda dead anyways. =p
but well, i guess im fine by now. so fret not abt e mood swinginess or watevr la. =)
To the Germies: ich hoffe, dass alles geht jetzt gut mit euch. jetzt weine ich nicht mehr..aber die Traurigkeit ist noch dabei. Also...kann man gar nix machen. aber sorgt nicht. =) ich liebe euch ganz ganz viel!!! =D und wir werden bald wiedersehen ne? =) Wenn ich freier bin, werde ich Briefe alles von euch schreiben. =) Obwohl ich denke noch viel ueber die Edertalschule und Frankenberg, ich muss starker sein. Ihr auch ne? Wir sind die Germies fuer immer ja? Doch ewig. =) Gottes Segen!
and to e certain ppl i somehow affected: sometimes i duno what to say to u all. =s but nevertheless, still love u all ya? hopefully all will be stable now on. sorry!
n to A.F: A.F this is an important announcement. Sandra is gettin higher n higher n higher. due to handbells i believe. beware.
P.S. the next post oder so was will be dedicated besonders fuer die Germies. =)
<< *take my hand*
8:34 PM
back to the past; *
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