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Thursday, February 10, 2005
:: In dire straits.
its been a bad week so far.
everythn seems to be going wrong.
miss e entire OBS clan,
stil missing LuhLuh n bobby n armstrong
maths marks are e worst ever
never seem to be able to finish my tests in time
the time limit always seems too short
no time to do anythn
ppl i love are gettin hurt
ppl i care abt are daoing me
someone i treat as my reali good fren is "watever-ing" me all e time
my best fren's out of town
church is gettin stressful tho it shdn be
souls need to be saved bt im nt progressing anywhere
iv let God down like a billion times
sometimes i wonder if He's gettin tired of forgiving me..(i try nt to believe tt..)
my life is mainly in a mess
id rather tt certain ppl dun care abt me
bt they jus dun leav me alone now matter how much i explain to them
plus..they care for an absolutely wrong reason.
i miss the simple life of OBS
true, frenshps get tested
true, the going is tough
bt then again, u focus on wats important and tt alone
nt some other stupid unimportant stuf tt shd go under the miscellaneous section.
still waters run deep.
look at me on e outside.
if i seem ok to u,
look again.
tho this isn e worst point in my life,
n there hv been other moments..
when i was actually sucidal n my spirit had to tlk my soul n body out of doing anythn stupid,
this period of time jus isn exactly wat i wld call..ideal.
nex week's TTD.
im MC-ing.
how wonderful.
pray tt i dun freak out on stage n die.
e only thing i can do on stage is dance..for goodness sake la.
it feels like im hitting rock bottom.
id rather sink into the quarry's bottom though..wherever tt is...
Lord help me.
<< *take my hand*
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