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Thursday, February 24, 2005

yay. im posting.

sigh. guys..its nt tt i dun wana post.
duno wat to post abt la...
my inspiration for songs and poems is way below minimum
im so so so busy with stuff
hvn been doing as well as i wana for all my tests...even german isn exceptionally good

spiritual life fluctuating between 0% and 80%.
LORD I WANA GET BACK TO YOU.
there's this sudden urgency to go out there and live life with passion
help me Lord. for i can do nthn without u.

n then there's a4. my darling a4. sigh. form teacher's gone for an operation all of a sudden.
n a4 is as lifeless as before. or shd i say..lifeless when there's a need to be lively
come on guys...enthu up a lil. please???
its reali hard to coordinate evrythn if u all jus stone at me when i tlk infront of e class u noe..
i wana love this class as much as i loved 2m. im sure u all want a fun united class too right?
then cmon dudettes! liven up! ur all part of this class. =)
this class will remain as dead as it is if we choose to let it be lik tt.
if we all jus step out of our comfort zone a lil and work to making this class united,
it will be in no time at all.
pls a4? we'll be together for two years.
so far we hvn succeeded in any class efforts AT ALL.
2m was marvellous n we were at least top3 in almost all e competitions.
why?
cos evryone stepped out of their comfort zones more or less.
evryone tried to BE part of e class.
jus a pity it was rather late by e time we all did.
it was towards e end of e year n e class was jus split up lik tt.

its e beginning now.
while things are stil early,
lets get a headstart and REALI bond.
i noe all of u are considerably quiet..with e exception of..a few( =p)
bt wel..believe it or not..i was one of e quietest ppl in class in sec1.
ask 1D'03.
now i tink im a lil too noisy..haha.
bt wel..jus make an effort to not stone ok?
il reali appreciate it.
but then again, if u guys are happy with e way e class is now, wel..then i gues its up to u.

there's so much more going for us a4.
if we EACH just put in a teeny bit more effort,
32 x 10% is already 320%.
it will make a world of a difference.

Amstrong rocks.
A4 does too.=)

~*i'll sing..bcos e world cant take away..

your love.

<< *take my hand*
6:55 PM

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Thursday, February 10, 2005

:: In dire straits.

its been a bad week so far.
everythn seems to be going wrong.
miss e entire OBS clan,
stil missing LuhLuh n bobby n armstrong
maths marks are e worst ever
never seem to be able to finish my tests in time
the time limit always seems too short
no time to do anythn

ppl i love are gettin hurt
ppl i care abt are daoing me
someone i treat as my reali good fren is "watever-ing" me all e time
my best fren's out of town
church is gettin stressful tho it shdn be
souls need to be saved bt im nt progressing anywhere
iv let God down like a billion times
sometimes i wonder if He's gettin tired of forgiving me..(i try nt to believe tt..)

my life is mainly in a mess
id rather tt certain ppl dun care abt me
bt they jus dun leav me alone now matter how much i explain to them
plus..they care for an absolutely wrong reason.

i miss the simple life of OBS
true, frenshps get tested
true, the going is tough
bt then again, u focus on wats important and tt alone
nt some other stupid unimportant stuf tt shd go under the miscellaneous section.

still waters run deep.
look at me on e outside.
if i seem ok to u,
look again.

tho this isn e worst point in my life,
n there hv been other moments..
when i was actually sucidal n my spirit had to tlk my soul n body out of doing anythn stupid,
this period of time jus isn exactly wat i wld call..ideal.

nex week's TTD.
im MC-ing.
how wonderful.
pray tt i dun freak out on stage n die.
e only thing i can do on stage is dance..for goodness sake la.
it feels like im hitting rock bottom.
id rather sink into the quarry's bottom though..wherever tt is...

Lord help me.

<< *take my hand*
11:59 AM

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Saturday, February 05, 2005

::OBS ( a BIG Thank You to Luh Luh)

we're back from OBS. It's been an experience no one can possibly forget.
out of the entire experience, so much has been learnt.
friendships have been put to the test,
and Others Before Self has been exercised.

Armstrong,
we all are closer than we ever have been.
and we all noe..that deep in our hearts,
there's one person we'll never ever forget.

Luh Luh, we miss you.
so so much.
normally,this would have been one of e times that trigger off a poem or song.
bt this time, at least for awhile, i cant bring myself to write anythn.

everything he's ever done for us, is way more than any other watch can ever imagine.
true. all ur instructors were probably great, caring ones.
we nvr wil understand ur love for them.
likewise, no other will understand Armstrong's love for Luh Luh.

which instructor, wld wash e pot tt wasn clean enuf,at 11pm at nite,
jus so tt the rest of e watch could go bath?
which instructor, cares so much abt his watch,
tt he gives 2 bottles of sunblock for khayaking in case we dun hv enuf,
tt he gives e remaining of his aloe vera gel to e sunburnt ones,
tt he offers to cook a pot of milo for us(we were supposed to drink plain tap water for 5 days)
tt he cleans up the store with us, rather FOR us, with us only helping here n there,
tt he offers to swap his lighter backpack for a heavier one cos someone cudn bear e weight?
Luh Luh does.

everytime Luh Luh comes to mind,
it's either tt we're on e verge of tears, or we're already in tears.
Chew Hiap Luh, no one will ever replace u in Armstrong's heart.
we could have never done it without u.

Thank you for everything Luh Luh,
And thank you Lord, for providing us with him.
May you bless him and let him come to noe u as his personal Lord n Saviour. Amen.

and Armstrong, let's all keep him in prayer, tt though we may nt see him ever again in this lifetime,
tt we'll ALL be reunited as Armstrong in Heaven,
dwelling in the presence of God,
without the exception of Luh Luh.

<< *take my hand*
11:56 AM

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