= ||||||||Â rewind |||||| ~~~~~ back.to.our.past ~~~~~ |||||

<< Looking back [#] `-

Sunday, December 26, 2004

tmr's carolling day for ushers. wonderful kin onn/derek..or in other words..kimberly. my dear sisterhooder n fellow I/C. why u pang seh me again??!!! PLS. u hv to pass me e chords n lyrics somehow for matthea to play k? phoebe's doing all e calling already. =p. oh welz. hv fun at ur sembawang thing n see ya at e dinner!

wel, say u noe a person..
who used to be close to u..
yet now..
doesn exactly like ur existance on this earth.

u wana fulfil his wish.
u tel him ul leave,
u tel urself tt ul leave him alone too.
yet.
jus yet.
evry single day of e rest of ur life is full of sheer pain tryin to do so.
izit worth it?
wat if u try not to cling on to e past,
yet e person doesn blive u tt ur nt tryin to cling on?
wat wld u do?

as a matter of fact, wat wld i do?
u so wana be there for tt person in his problems
u so wana see him smile.
u dun wana hv to live as a shadow in his life for eternity
u dun wana hv to manipulate ur thoughts like ur in an invisible straight jacket evrytime u meet him
u dun wana feel this way
u wana leav him alone n be happy abt it
can u?

jus ask urself one question.
hv u ever felt wat it feels lik to feel feelings tt u feel u shdn be feeling?
wel il tell u this.
i have.
n trust me.
its nt worth it. when u noe its nt right to feel those feelings,
dun do anythn abt them besides get rid of them.
its for ur own good.
ur hearing this..from someone who got hurt e living daylights out of her.
so believe.
pls.

loves. =)

<< *take my hand*
10:07 PM

back to the past; *

- ~*~*~*~-

Saturday, December 25, 2004

::Can I not?

*dedicated to someone..who once played an important part in my life

I promised you
il keep it true
future cant be foretold
bt il go

u want me out
u dun hv to shout
il leave now
tho i duno how

it hurts
its pain
all efforts
down the drain

now as i leave
i just cant believe
its another few decades
b4 the pain'll fade

what do i do as such
how to keep u from hearing of me
im gona miss u so much
even though ud be happy

all i can do now is remain silent
all i can do now is quietly stand by
all i can do now is not get violent
can i not? no...she can..not i.

<< *take my hand*
10:53 PM

back to the past; *

- ~*~*~*~-

Friday, December 24, 2004

Got inspiration for this one when i dreamt of this marriage scene. haha. anyways..its a song of a bride. =) Wishing all brides of today n brides-to-be a blissful marriage. =)

::Eternity

Come here my dear..
This i want you to hear..
U r e only one
i ever needed near..

Take my hand sweetheart..
This is e part..
When i tell you..
I do.

This moment on..
I entrust my all..
to you..
so catch me if i fall..

I promise you.
All our lives thru
il be by you
in everythn you do

My shining star
Light from afar
My sunshine
My warmth in winter time

Now as we take
This final step
None shall forget
With no regrets.

Standing here
I have no fear
With all serenity
This'll last..for eternity.

<< *take my hand*
2:30 PM

back to the past; *

- ~*~*~*~-

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

:: ur smile* (new inspirations call for new poems!) To suern: enjoy.

ur smile causes e coldest heart to be warm
ur smile brightens a heart of the dimmest form
ur smile can cause a frozen heart to melt
ur smile lights up the darkest heart cos love is felt
ur smile makes the world such a better place
ur smile enhances evry feature of ur face
ur smile makes me noe tt love is real
ur smile assures me tt its ok if i fail
ur smile brings me strength evry step of e way
ur smile gives me hope to face each day

nvr stop smiling, cos u nvr noe who's falling in love with ur smile.

©*~pHoEbE

P.S this poem is not to anyone in particular.

<< *take my hand*
10:37 PM

back to the past; *

- ~*~*~*~-

Friday, December 10, 2004

:: NZ trip 2004. =) im back.( warning:: reali long post)

im back!! home still feels most comfy after all. =p
well..so here's e post-holiday post(get it?? its a pun..=p) tt all of uv been askin for!
new zealand basically jus rocks!

first day, we had a 9pm flight. we planned to be 30min early b4 check-in time. we were ready n evrythn, after hectically clearing up the house after renovation. my dad, however, forgot to turn of e dryer n rushed back..apparently he said he rushed..n came back 15min later. >.<
New Zealand was strangely..cool..if u noe wat i mean..
for summer, it was most of e time just a single digit degree??We arrived in Auckland arnd 10plus in e morning..immigrations there were considerably fast..as compared to korea's which practically took forever. We took e airport shuttle to the domestic flight terminal. it was pretty..small...bt wel..e shops were reali nice, especially the book store..n we had lunch at this cafe called.." The Bach" . =) my parents had a hard time adjusting to e new zealanders' accent..so they sent me to buy food almost evrytime. The system there's real different. u pay for e drink, n u jus go to e fridge n take it out urself..makes me wonder if they find an extra few bottles missing each day..

we boarded the flight to Christchurch at abt 1pm..it was a smaller plane..cos it was a domestic flight..with ppl in green instead of ppl in blue..n e air-stewardess's were in heels..i wonder how they balance...cos SIA stewardess's are in traditional slippers..=)

Christchurch has a big nice park n a big nice cathedral..we stored our baggage at e airport n then went to willowbank reserve in a shuttle..the driver was Mr McTaggart n he was a reali nice 60plus man who came back to e reserve to send us to e airport to get our baggage, followed by back to e motel we were staying in.willowbank was full of cute animals! all sorts of birds like e kea, kiwi, blue heron, emu, geese, pigeons, turtledoves, peacocks etc..e llamas,horses,deer,goats,salmon,trouts,wallabies,rabbits...n of course... ducks, ducks n more ducks!!! Then we went to e motel..arena motel. e motels in nz are reali places with abt 10 hotel units. The units are so well-furnished n well-equipped, they arnt exactly..motels. we stayed there for e night n then e nex day, we travelled to Greymouth by rail.

E train was called "Tranzscenic rail"..n it boy was it scenic. we went past farmlands, mountains, valleys filled with lupins, rushing rivers, creeks, brooks, with sheep, cows, horses n deer everywher. =) took lots of pics in e open air viewing gallery. the food in e train was awesome too! e train was delayed however..n we arrived at e station late..a good thing the train n e coach we were going to take were under e same company, so e coach was still waiting there for us. we took e coach to fox glacier, via hokitika( place famous for jade..) n Franz Josef. Fox glacier was reali cold..cos it was lik..a glacier..?! =p..this motel here..Sunset motels..was like e BEST among ALL e motels in fox glacier, n among all e motels i stayed at in nz.great view, great design, great facilities. they had an indoor BBQ set. =) we wanted to go to e glowworm caves..bt apparently it started hailing..>.<..so we had dinner first by BBQ-ing ham and sausages. Afterwhich, we decided to head to e glowworm caves again in e cold weather since it stopped hailing..bt then..when we had jus walked lik a few metres, it started raining. >.<

The next day, we headed to..Queenstown! ok. fine. i was nauseating alot on e way there. up and down e hills n valleys.we took so many of those " oh my tian" routes..as my bro n i called them. bt it was a nice journey, stopping over at waterfalls, salmon farms etc..n nice little towns.Queenstown literally n figuratively rocked. there were huge rocks in e ocean where waves crashed upon..n of course..there were loads of fun stuff which made e place rock!! it was pretty late in e evening by e time we got to Queenstown, so we went to our motel first, alexisqueenstown motel..which had..two floors n a great view of lake wakatipu!!! then we rushed to e skyline restaurant which was a REALI cool place. u take a gondola up to e top of e hill..which looks more like a mountain to us singaporeans actually..n then there's a big buffet restaurant at e top with great views. u can actually stand at e edge of a mountain peak if u walk up e route they have from e souvenir shop.btw..there were these super-sheep tt were balancing themselves like totally slanted on e slope of e hill, grazing. i hv a picture of them..ul see it in e online album soon..after a great meal..of lots of cold dishes plus this section of maori-style cooked food, and roasted parsnips plus roasted gourmet potatoes, we went to e souvenir shop where i bought my darling A.F paua shell pieces!!! n reali nice postcards if i say so myself. =) i wanted to buy our dearest kinonn/kimberly from e sisterhood some kiwi sweets as he requested, there..bt they were kinda ex so i waited til later in e journey. u noe e souvenir shop has lots of hilarious stuf?they have stuffed toy sheep hanging from a stretchable string..supposedly bungy sheep, tt can be pulled down n then released..n when they are released...they go..."baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa."haha. yup. ok then we went back to our motel where i admired e paua shell pendants and ring with a paua shell as e stone tt my mum had bought.n sorted out e paua shell pieces for e A.F =)The next day...Queenstown again. we walked arnd the town centre which was reali calm n pleasant..there were market places selling nice souvenirs n handicrafts..including a clay flute tt looked lik an ocarina. bt it was reali ex..50 sing dollars..so..oh well..=s.they had ducks walking up n down e steps of e harbour..n e rest bobbing up n down in e water..we wandered arnd for awhile..then we went for e kawarau river jet boat ride! it was majorly fun! 700 horse power to play with..as e driver said..wad can u expect manz! i tink his name was erm..craig?? i cant quite remember..bt if i were to get chermaine her Mr Cute from nz..haha..i wld hv brought him. seriously.bt no. no Mr Cute for chermaine..tsk tsk...how cud u even tink of tt chermaine?? =pok..apart from e cuteness. he did lots of 360 degress spins with e boat which totally wet us all bt was REALI awesome! then he drove closely past trees..n tried to scare us by steering straight into a rock n then swerving away at e last second. so yea..thrill maximum. we then got off at e deer park heights pick up point where a cute little bus came over n brought us to e deer park heights which was on a mountain.it was just wonderful. sheep, goats, cows, bison, deer, scottish cattle roaming all around. minature horses, pigs n boars for u to hand feed...=)..jus wonderful. i played with the goat kids alot..e goats were reali friendly..if u ran up a hill where all of them were, n ran down again, they wld follow u down. one goat tried to get into e bus..n another goat kid actually went onto e driver's seat while e driver was leading us up a route to e peak of e mountain which was top scenic. u cud see e whole of queenstown n a huge part of lake wakatipu from there..ok..maybe it's not a HUGE part of lake wakatipu..cos...although i did see like a part of wakatipu tt could measure up to a few times of e singapore river, lake wakatipu..runs..86km!
ok..then we went back to e motel after buying food at e supermarket! we bought frankfurters, ham, potatoes, cup soup, bacon, mussels, mushrooms etc. we cooked. or rather..i cooked. =p..except for dad flipping a piece or two of bacon..n my bro frying his first ever egg! he got so excited lor..cos my dad said it was nice. n he asked my mum to rate my egg n his egg..haha..silly boy..n now..he loves frying eggs. he's been frying them evryday. i wasn evn tt enthu when i fried my first egg. wel..it is nice..bt gosh..think of all those cholesterol..anyways..i gues he'll get bored soon if we make him do it evryday..=p. then we went to bed after a nice bath.

nex day!! i woke up a little too high. i changed into my jeans from shorts. it was cold. out on e bed all nite wad..so i wore it..n i was like.." *blink blink.* like..Whaiy's e pants so coldd?!! n then i started tlkin to e mirror. i said..i dun mean wow e pants' so cold..i mean Whaiy's e pants' so cold. im asking a QUESTION here. someone answer me?!!!" then i kinda died down n jus took my toothbrush n headed for e bathroom. so yea..cold nights make u crazy. reali. then we left queenstown by coach. we were headed for christchurch where we wld spend e night b4 travelling on to picton. along e way, we went to mrs joan's fruit stall where i bought dried kiwis that are reali crispy, for e sisterhood! we bought all sorts of other dried fruits n nuts. n then we moved on. along e way..e driver said tt reports said it was snowing on mount cook! e snow on e top of other mountains was already unusual for summer there..as e driver had tld us..bt for us to actually see it snowing?? tt was phenomenal. we went up to mount cook..greeted by snow. e last time my mum had seen snow was like 20yrs ago..so she tot it was jus rain..haha. i got off..had fun in e snow..which froze my hands..i didn hv gloves on..n took a few pics here n there. it was super unfair k?! my bro was allowed to throw snowballs at me cos i had my windbreaker on which was water proof..bt i wasn allowed to throw any at him. >.< =(anyways..we went in n warmed up. then ate some stuf at e cafe above. we then left..n came to tekapu i tink..im kinda mixed up with e places..so wel..we stopped there for a toilet break n a quick snack. they had a souvenir shop there too! i bought this cute lamb soft toy for NZ$5. then we went to Geraldine. it's a town. we bought nice towels there. =) then later in e evening, we reached christchurch. we stayed at e chardonnay motor lodge. cool place too...jus tt e dishwasher started foaming and there was a big puddle of bubbles plus foam plus soap in front of it by 9pm. btw..if i didn mention it..e sun only starts setting at 9pm there. so at like 8pm..it looks like its jus 5pm. we had a junk food orientated meal..then went to bed.

e next day, we took a shuttle(which is more of like a big cab really) to e city area where we took e coach headed for picton. we stopped by kaikoura..where we had initially planned to stay at b4 we changed our mind a week b4 going on e holiday. there was whale watching there..n due to lack of time..we reluctantly decided not to go for it. n its a good thing we didn. cos..e sea was violently rough tt day..n it was not suitable weather condition for whale watching. so..phwee..=) we walked arnd..n we SO wanted to eat e crayfish there..a pity we only had 30min at kaikoura b4 e coach departed. so oh well. we reached picton at like..1pm. our interislander ferry to e wellington in e north island was at 6pm..so we wandered arnd picton. first we went for lunch..at e toot n whistle restaurant..haha..nice name really. the food was great. =) the fries were like..4 times as thick as mcdonald fries.then we walked arnd the area. i wasn very stable yet..from the super bumpy coach ride..so i was kinda..abt to faint? oh welz. oh yes..did i mention tt in e first cab ride tt i took, the radio was playing, " break away" =) ok..tt was out of point. as i was saying..we were abt to faint. wait no. i was abt to faint. so we quickly went to e super market to buy stuff for dinner on e ship..cos e food on board was reali ex. we bought cheese tomthumbs and i got myself a can of smoked tuna. dad insistently bought a can of lemon and ginger flavoured tuna. revolting i thought it. i tld him nt to..bt NO..he wldn listen..he said " I will eat it. and dun u ask me for a single bit later when u realize ur smoked tuna aint nice." i was like..fine. then we went to e aquarium beside e ferry terminal. there was this cool shop tt sold all types of rocks n minerals n fossils. bro n i were fascinating over agate, flourite, nautilus shells etc.. i bought a nice polished piece of rose quartz for jamie koh. haha..why? it's pink. ;) then we went to e terminal. boarded e ship. great view..great scenary..great everything. e wind was cool too. the waves rocked..=)when e ship started moving..we were like..wow. we could even lean forward on e deck and not fall with e wind supporting us by blowing against us. we stayed quite awhile on e deck..eating fries and "cheese n' onion" pringles. we then ate the cheese tomthumbs and the tuna. my dad tried e smoke one. then he ate his.then he asked me.." what flavour is tt ur eating again?" i tld him smoked..then he was like.."maybe i shd hv gotten smoked."haha. then i started nauseating. urgh. i puked an entire sick bag full of vomit while in e toilet. a nice member of e crew then asked me to go to e back of e ship cos it wldn be so rocky there. i saw these ppl lying horizontally on e floor there..i wondered why..until i tried lying horizontally. haha..it actually works..it makes u not nauseate..cos ur guts dun start bobbing up n down with e ship.ok..tt was seriously gross. forget it. in attempt to stop nauseating..i tried to focus on sumthn else. got to this souvenir machine tt wld melt ur 5 cent coin n make into a "interislander" coin with e name of e ship on it. in this case..aratere.nz's reali interesting. cos lik..in singapore..e street names r either english or malay. over there..e street names are either english or maori. so are the waterfalls, lakes, etc.

We got off e ship at like 9 plus. only to be horrified. we took a free shuttle to the "downtown backpackers inn". it was e cheapest tt we had booked..cos my mum wanted to jus give e backpackers inn a try. guess wad they had? an unfriendly reception, two cranky lifts tt looked lik they wld crumble any sec, a sleazy pub on e 2nd floor. in e room, two double decked beds, one tt shook everytime i turned, n e other made squeaky noises. e toilet stinked, n there was something blackish under the foam tt stil remained in e bathtub. the sink was yellowish, n the toilet paper was SUPER thin. i MEAN thin.anyways...so well..i decided not to bath tt day..so did e rest..lik..seriously..dun u tink we'd be cleaner if we didn bath..=s..n in e middle of night, there were guys shouting as they walked down e corridor " ladies..u alone?" i was like..*slaps face* tt was wellington. n we actually booked a backpackers inn for auckland too, which we wld be travelling to by train e next day..bt we just HAD to change it..cos e nex one was worse. they didn hv toilets in e room. they had shared toilets.>.<

Nex day! woke up, went to e shopping mall, Two Double 7 and ate Mc breakfast. e cab driver from e previous nite tld us we cud by EVRYTHN we needed there. bt like..how to? tt place's smaller than half of jurong point. =(
so we went to e victoria park mall by busES, notice e plural. tt place rocked! it was full of cool stuf. there was another rocks n minerals shop there which so excited my bro. i bought another sheep, pendants for suern n jamie chin each, n mum bought lanolin hand cream. it reali works. then we TRIED to get back to e motel to get our baggage. we got lost. so e cab driver whose cab we had booked had to come down n drive us back to e motel before going to e airport. at e airport, we did loads of last minute shopping at e duty free shops. got stuf for most of e guys there. including kiwi sweets for kinonn/kimberly.=p.
on e plane, it was so great to hear e singaporean accent again. =) n see stacks of straits times. =) i had fun watching movies all e time..amazing time flew. n there was this moment when an apple rolled thru e curtain( i was sitting at e front row, jus in front of e kitchen). i caught it..n then after awhile an air stewardess popped her head out, giggling and apologizing. she was so cute. haha..wel..when i got off..boy was i high. i started laughing at EVRYTHN. i tink e airport staff guy, who had a SUPER singaporean accent, who started shouting for " passengers transiting to jakarta", triggered it off. evryone was lik looking at me..=p
got back, had a bathe, felt comfy at home. then i checked my email. *shock shock horror horror* new assignments from heymath.>.<..did one of e assignments, then slept. wel, tt was my holiday! it was great. n btw, during one of e meals at mac, i noticed this on e paper on e tray:

Mcdonald's cooperation with the new zealand traffic police ( Nga Pirihimana Aotearoa)

Make it click TM

Kids you must remember
When your in the car
It doesnt make a difference if ur going near or far
If ur in e front seat
or if r in e back
Click goes ur seatbelt,
before you hit the track

Click goes ur seatbelt
Click,click,click!
When you take a ride you gotta belt up quick
Tell your famililes and your friends that that's the trick

Click goes your seat belt.
Make it Click!

cute isnt it?

i love new zealand..bt singapore's stil e most comfy of all..
ps.i noe tt was a REALI long post. u cant blame me k? it's 8 days of almost-pure fun! =p..jus kiddin..i noe i m lor sor. sori!

btw..here's e link to the online album..only uploaded 1/3 of it cos e bandwidth's REALI big..so until i upload e rest..here's e url. it'll be e same throughout. http://share.shutterfly.com/osi.jsp?i=EeAN2bNkybtW7g4

love ya dearies loads!! *hugssss*

<< *take my hand*
9:11 AM

back to the past; *

- ~*~*~*~-